“How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before
starting to improve the world” – Anne Frank
Often, I find myself calm about the idea of a having a baby in my life but completely overwhelmed at the idea of having all the “stuff” that comes with a baby. There are a series of questions that are asked by the typical person when you are having a baby. First, what are you having? When we say we aren’t finding out, people give us a funny look as say, why? My answer is why not? We live in a world of instant gratification. I actually think we have forgotten how to wait. Yep, waiting is hard. But, I keep telling myself how amazing that moment will be when the baby actually comes! Then, the person asks, have you picked out names? Next, the advice comes… You should buy this…eat this, not that…don’t do this, do that… It’s exhausting.
In response to the stress, I keep trying to maintain some sort of normality in my life and in an effort to not go off the deep end in baby world, I simplify things and try to break everything down into what I actually need and how I can positively impact my life as a “vessel” in an attempt to have a healthy baby. All the madness boils down to 5 items that we truly need when our baby is welcomed into the world:
- A place for baby to sleep (check- hand-me-down crib and bassinet)
- A way to diaper baby (check- see my blog titled, “The Poop on Cloth Diapering”)
- A way to keep baby warm (check, I have been given lots of hand-me-down cloths and blankets and have set up a registry at The Green Nursery (local to Bloomington) and BabyEarth (boasts one of the largest selections of eco-friendly baby products in the market today) for other items I need. Also, see blog post titled, “Local and Re-used”).
- A way to care for baby’s health and safety (check – between Craig’s list and my scheduled Green Baby Shower, I will be able to obtain all the necessities I need!)
- A way to feed baby (check- see blog post titled, “Using My Milk-Making Superpowers to Save the Planet”)
So, all in all I’m good to go. Wait, just kidding. I have tons to learn and in just a matter of days, I’m going to have even more time to dive deeper into babydom. This should not be confused with baby doom, even though there are times I feel this way. But, then I will feel this flutter or movement in my belly and think; this truly is the most amazing thing in the world. A person is growing inside me, and I am going to do everything in my power to raise a sustainable baby that understands the importance of the earth on which he/she lives, strives to make the world a better place in each and everything he/she does, and most importantly is happy, because what in the world is life without happiness!
Though the personal project is ending for V515, the project and research will continue for the rest of my life. I was blessed to be in this course during pregnancy. Graduate school doesn’t allow much time to research ways to make your life better. Often times, school leads to unhealthy eating and sleeping, lack of exercise, and on some days depression. But, this class was the light in my tunnel. It gave me a moment to research the most important thing in my life right now and to learn. It’s true many of the people I speak with think I’m crazy to be considering cloth diapers, a natural childbirth, making my own baby food, and breast-feeding. These concepts are hard for some people to grasp because they are different and may be a little inconvenient.
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference
...Robert Frost
But, after my research I know I can do it! I’ve never been one to follow the pack (as explained by the fact that I have a colony of worms living in a plastic tub in a closet in my basement) and in not following the path I find a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction. Maybe what I learn from this adventure will inspire others to do the same. Just as I have done in V515, I plan to share my knowledge/worms with the world! Bill, thank you for allowing this exploration!
Another final note, Garrett Chicken Project 101 will be revisited and it will be even more fun to revisit when I have a little one around to help me learn the “ways of the chicken.”
Until we meet again, wishing you all the courage to pursue your passions, the strength to endure the hardships, and the happiness to guide your journey through this amazing life!